Thursday, August 16, 2012

Sad update

I haven't updated much since I was discharged from the RE.

At 10 weeks, I dragged a friend to my first dr appointment and ended up with an ultrasound. Everything looked great.

Between 10-13 weeks I was sick, SICK as could be. Throwing up a lot. I threw up 5 times in one day. That was the worst. I even lost weight. But as odd as it was, I was grateful for symptoms.

At 12 weeks, we had a great dr appointment and heard the heartbeat - around 165.

But when I went in for a check at 14, the baby had passed away sometime between 13 and 13.5 weeks.

I have a D&E scheduled for tomorrow.

Although we are sad, our faith is not shaken. We have no idea why, but then again, God works in mysterious ways. We are even more grateful for our little miracle, who is about to celebrate her 3rd birthday.

17 comments:

Courtney said...

Oh my word. You guys have been through the wringer time and again. I don't know what to type. I just wish I could give you an actual hug. I'm sorry for your loss(es).

Stacie said...

I am so, so sorry. Many hugs to you.

Turia said...

Oh Nity, I am so sorry. I was thinking about you the other day and hoping all was going well. What terrible news.

They've run all the possible tests, right? They've triple checked that there's nothing going on in your body that could be causing these losses (antibodies, progesterone, what have you)?

Love and hugs,
T.

K said...

I just stumbled on your blog. I know how you feel. One of my losses was at the same time. Prayers for you and your strength in the upcoming weeks.

Mo said...

oh god, I am so, so sorry. Unbelievable. My heart goes out to you.

Mo

Marcia (123 blog) said...

My friend, I'm SOOOOOOOO sad to read your update, esp when it seemed like everything was going so well.

I am glad that your faith is not shaken though.

I also had very, very sad news from a girl in our infertility group - she literally doesn't know which way to go next. they have tried everything. donor everything, all sorts of protocols and nothing is working.

Searching for Serenity said...

I am so very very sorry. I hope you are allowed the time to heal physically and emotionally. You are and will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care, friend. xo

Searching for Serenity said...

I just lit Xander's candle for your little one.

D said...

I am so incredibly sorry that you are going through this again. It isn't fair and makes me so mad. Wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and praying for you. Take care. Hugs.

Mel said...

Oh, Nity...I was SO, SO sad to read this update. *hugs* Praying that our perfect God can wrap His arms around you and give you the peace that only HE is able to pass. Love you and holding you up in prayer, my sister.

Anonymous said...

:( my heart breaks for you. i hate this.

sending big hugs.

Becky said...

Was just catching up on blog reading today and saw your news. I am sitting here crying, I am just so heartbroken for you. I am so very sorry, I can't even come up with any words right now. You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I have no words other than I am truly sorry for your loss

((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

Alb Mom said...

I'm so sorry.

Heather said...

So terribly sorry... :(
Sending hugs, support and prayers xx

Bea said...

I am just coming over from the LFCA because I had to let you know how sorry I am for your loss, and wish you strength going forwards.

Bea

Dora said...

I'm so very sorry. Thinking of you.