Thanks for all your sweet comments about my jealousy post. I actually think things are getting a little better, but I've been super grumpy lately with a very short temper. I'm blaming so much of it on still having pregnancy hormones in me. Seriously, I've been having blood draws for over 5 weeks. It's been 6 weeks since my miscarriage and last week my HCG was still 7 (the same as the week before). I've got this awful PMS that you'd think I'd get a period soon... but I only get random spotting here and there. It's very bizarre.We'll see what happens with the next blood draw this Thursday.
We've been on vacation this past week, which has been super nice. We've had such amazing weather lately that we were able to sit out on the beach in October! That's pretty crazy for New England. I was super grateful. I thought a lot about my jealous feelings and my grumps. It was very soothing to sit there and hearing the lapping of the waves. Over and over and over. I just feel so small and insignificant being by the ocean. So much of my life is all about me. What I'm doing, feeling, etc. And yet, really, I'm just this tiny grain of sand that's part of a big ocean. It's not all about me.
I'm going to try to remember the ocean waves when my temper starts to creep in and pray that I think about other people too.
3 comments:
Boo for the grumps and double boo for the hcg in your system. That is really not fair. If you have to miscarry, then the hormones need to be cooperative and go away. I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this. And if all you have are the grumps then I'd say you're doing pretty good. Take care of yourself my dear!
Hope you feel better soon!
I have been thinking about you. when i started blogging again, i wondered and thought what was going on in your life.
i just wanted to give you a big hug and read your previous posts with such a heavy heart.
i had a miscarrige too earlier this year and it broke my heart.
thinking of you.
hugs and love.
xoxo
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